So I celebrated my birthday with a small party a few weeks ago. Today is my actual birthay.

I might be going out later for some surprise thing that Wulf decided on. IT AGGRIVATES ME. I hate surprises.Especially cause he wants me to wear a dress Dx. I wouldn't mind but...it's cold out, and I like pants. But that depends on someone else, if not tonight I'll still go out (I think) but we'll do the "surprise" tomorrow night.

Tomorrow I'm hitting the mall to get some stuff i need before going to New Hampshire to see my lovely girlfriend for 6 days. Various things planned in that time of course.

Then the day after I get home I have my appointment with my dermatologist toget botox for a problem I have, and my surgery cosult with my orthopedic. The day after that, surgery on my knee. x_X

Busy start of the year. Actually, my whole year's busy.

PS: starting your birthday with a raging bout of insomnia SUCKS.

Many or most of you know that for many years I considered myself to be bisexual.

Over the last year I've been thinking on it a lot, and I'm pretty damn secure and confdent in saying that was a false statement.

I'm homosexal. Yeah, I'm a lesbian.

(No, this is not a CHOICE. It means that I AM GAY, but identified myself as bisexual. It's a common thing really, it takes time to come to terms and confirm ones sexual orienation when so many look down upon it. Orientation and Identity are different. That's the principal ex-gay ministries operate on. They do not change someones orientation, just how they act. A gay man can sleep with a woman and claim himself straight. It's called brainwashing and lying.)

So, I'm curious. Do any of my watchers have a problem with me homosexuality?

and on that note, I'm Pagan, not Christian, so any religious debates can eaisily be squashed. Though I may or may not be opening another can of worms here.

I feel no need to hide who I am so...there ya go.


by the way: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY. I'm officially 18 xD

laptop's back, and so is my best friend! <3

My laptop charger decided to shit out on me. I milked a few more days out of it, but then my battery totally died, laptop shut off, and I can't turn it back on without a charger for the battery.

SO, because i'm retarded and hate communicating with people of business, Tema-chan will help me with the warranty stuff this weekend. Then I'll have to send it in, wait, yadda, yadda, yadda.

And mom is nice enough to let me use her computer (which is overrun with viruses and craptastic) , a little bit, so I won't be on much. x_X

Sorry guys!

Warning: the following is a 4 am rambling of an emotionally stumped person that has a lot on her mind and cannot always express it in the ways she probably should. It might not make sense as she s not bothering to proof-read and edit it. Please bare with her, as Sasu is somewhat of a total moron. Thankyou.

I am not going to ever be 100% original. I can guarantee there will always be someone who thinks what I think, feels what I feel, likes what I like, wears what I wear, has the same hairstyle, similarly named pets, the same clothes, the same car, the same taste in music.

This does not have to be the same person. I'm not one thing, I have varied interests, and there will always be someone that has at least one in common with me. Sometimes more which is the case with my friends.

I am however, an individual. It does hurt when I am accused of copying something that I've wanted for a while, and someone has just beat me to the punch.

I feel the need to say this, because if I see something and decide I like it, I shouldn't have to be afraid to do it or get it myself. I do not mean this with legally copyrighted things (then again, look how many plotlines and characters from media can be comparedso flawlessly....), but for instance:

a hairstyle.

Maybe I want one, should I have to be afraid because someone moderately well-known has it, that I will be called a copycat? No. Will I be called that anyway if I get it? Probably. It's a hairstyle people, it's not my identity.

I'm sick of people doing things like that. No one should be known for one specific thing, and if they change that, or happen to have it the same as someone else, they should not be looked down upon or ridiculed for it.


It does hurt when someone accuses me of trying to be someone else. I am not trying to be anyone, but myself, just maybe a different version. Is it a bad thing that maybe I want to adopt someone elses ideals if I feel I can better help humanity? I don't think so. Is it bad if i want to change a small part of my appearance to express myself? It shouldn't be, no matter who or how many people have made that same change. Now if someone were to specifically do such a thing to be "like so-and-so"

you know the people:
"omg, you cut your hair?!" And a week later they show up with it cut in the same or similar style. Dyed the same, and wearing similar accessories, clothing, makeup,books, tv shows, and random trinkets.. ect.. (I HAD ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE. FREAKED ME OUT AND ANNOYED ME. SHE. WAS. TRYING. TO. BE. ME.)


So, let me be me. I'll let you be you. Provided you aren't a self-righteous a**hole that needs a sever reality checked. I'll be kind enough to do the public a service by giving it to you, please have the same courtesy for me.